Surrendering

It still doesn't feel that we are actually living in Singapore!
I still wake up in the mornings and think that Im going to be going back to SA soon!

I LOVE exploring this place - even just going to the supermarket is an adventure!

My feet are not that happy though! They are sore, swollen and tender from all the walking! Back in SA I used to buy shoes coz they looked cute or pretty, now, I have to test out the spongy-ness of them first. Its very difficult to find pretty AND comfortable shoes to walk around in! A good pedi and massage is DEFINITELY what I need!

I do not know how the local woman look so glamourous walking around in their HIGH heels and gorgeous dresses - not perspiring AT ALL??? I look like a wreck when I step out our door into the heat and humdity!



This is what I look like and feel like when I reach my destination .......



I have been thinking a lot about babies this week. Not sure why?

No particular "anniversary" coming up. I have found myself staring at every baby I have seen in the streets or in the shops. There have been a lot of pregnant women around too and after chatting to one of the local lady's here she said that its good luck for the Chinese woman to have a baby this year because it is the year of the dragon in the Chineses calender.

Once again, I have the Glory baby song in my head - the words are just beautiful and so true. If you havent heard it, go and google it on Youtube.

"Heaven will hold you, before we do!"
"Heaven is all you will ever know!"
"We miss you in every way"

Tonight I have got my baby scrapbook out and paged through my book again!

My heart is a little heavy tonight and longing for them again. I think there have been so many new things that I have been experiencing that my mind has been taken off that aspect of my life. But when things go quiet (Mike has gone to see Batman with some friends), my mind goes quiet too and I reflect. I think they would be proud of us today!

Man, I do miss them! I wish they had never left me!

I have been listening to an amazing song called - Mighty to save. Its a common song sung in church.

But there are a few lines that always stick out for me.

"Take me as You find me,
with all my fears and failures.
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow,
everything I believe in.
Now I surrender!"

Those words are incredible! I have many fears.... fears about ever having a baby and ever being pregnant again - and those fears I will have to deal with at some stage.
I have had many failures in my life - I need to surrender it all!

I was encouraged to be reminded about Abraham again and how he was obedient in obeying God when he was told to sacrifice his son. He knew God was faithful and that this was bigger than Himself.
God knew his heart and came through for him by providing a lamb for him to sacrifice.

This son that Abraham had, he had waited MANY MANY years for and I keep thinking about my life and thought, how would I have responded? I def would have questioned.....! Although I have NOT waited as long as Abraham did for a child, I could try to imagine how he felt to be finally given this son and then told to give him up! wow!

"Surrendering" has been very much on my mind and in my heart this week!

I am really missing a lot of things and people this week and have been very grateful for the small blessings throughout my days!