Adopted for Life

Regardless of our journey and whats happened, that feeling of broodiness has never left. Yes, fear has definitely taken over in certain aspects - we do not want me to fall pregnant again for fear of what might go wrong again. If we fall pregnant again and we lose another baby, I don't think it will be easy to forgive ourselves for making the decision to try again. But there is also the chance that a new pregnancy could result in a healthy baby - are we willing to risk it? No. Not at this stage. I do not actually have that desire to be pregnant again. My heart used to ache when I saw others pregnant. But not any more. It scares me. Too many bad memories of being pregnant.

Since being in Singapore, our hearts have been softened for the fatherless and since doing our research on adoption options, our eyes have been opened to the amount of innocent children who are left with no parents or family due to various situations. My heart breaks for them! We are excited about adoption possibilities that lie ahead for us!