"I'm waiting, I'm waiting on you Lord, and I am hopeful.
I am waiting on your Lord, though it is painful. Patiently I will wait.
I will move ahead, bold and confident. Taking every step in obedience.
While I'm waiting, I will serve you!
While I'm waiting, I will worship!"

These words have encouraged me so much. I feel like everyone has been invited to a party except me. I am constantly needing to be happy for other people and share in their 'good news' while my heart is aching.
Sometimes my mind wonders and I relive the doctors appointments, scans, operations and my heart aches. Some days it's just too sore to even think about it. On those days, I just feel so fragile I want to wrap myself in tissue paper to avoid being hurt!
I never want to get or seem bitter. I am constantly having to keep my emotions in check, and it's difficult!