Changing times.

"My pain can be a posture of prayer for others!"

I read this a few ago and it has stuck in my mind since then!
If i had read this a few months ago I would have thought that it would never ever have been possible!
My heartache and grief had completely taken over my life and I was feeling defeated!

It was today that Mike and I were chatting about how well we feel we are doing! Yes we still have our sad days and better days but we doing heaps better than even a few weeks ago!
We will never ever just "forget" our lost babies because they have helped shaped uus todayy! It shakes one to the very core and questions everything you ever believed in!

However, I have met so many women along my journey who have gone through a miscarriage or are still - unbeknown to them - going to go through this heartache!
I have had the honour of walking the road with a lot of these amazing women whose dreams have been shattered as well! Women who are going through a very silent grief that society often doesn't validate!
It is amazing how special it is when people remember an expected due date or a particulary important date for that lady!
I hold all these women so close to my heart and I can pray for them with a genuine yyearning and desire for them to be comforted and for God to give them joy again! This has only been possible becauuse of what I have gone through! I know that everyones individual stories are different but the pain is the same!

My miscarriages have also given me more sympathy for anyone who is grieving - no matter who they have lost and I know the special a bunch of flowers are or a meal or a hug is on a difficult day!

I am walking a road that I certainly didn't want to but I'm here now and I'm meeting amazing woman who are unfortunately on the same road and we all have something in common. Its a hard road - harder than what most people think - but we can only just pick eachother up and carry on! As much as we want to sit down and call for the sweeping vehicle to come pick us up coz we are DONE, we can't! We have to keep going!

I am grateful for those people in my life and I desire to be an encouragement to others too!
Some good has to come out of this difficult and taxing situation!